Sunday, December 12, 2010

Advent 3.2 - Patience and Fearlessness

"Be patient, therefore, beloved, until the coming of the Lord."

James 5:7


When I read this text, I thought, Patience? Seriously, Patience?


We have no choice, not if we are in a time of loss.

And then I thought about how, in the first months after a death, we are impatient because we are afraid. Because everything is affected and most of it falls apart. Finances. Legal concerns. Property. Not to mention your concerns for all the other members of your family ~ especially if the death has been from suicide, which you fear others will now see as an option.

You name it; there's a problem.

A couple of nights ago I went to a Survivors of Suicide meeting, primarily to hand out flyers for our Blue Christmas service. But there were two sets of family members there, representing an elderly woman and a young man, each lost to suicide in October. "And you just can't believe it," offered one person. "It isn't enough that you're grieving such a terrible death. Within a matter of days you're hit with all of these other difficulties!"

And so I've been thinking about this text, and about how real patience requires fearlessness.

I'm not sure where I first encountered this song, but we heard it this past January at a funeral mass for another young person, a high school freshman who had died very suddenly. My husband had coached her soccer team for five years, so he had watched her grow from an eight-year-old girl into a lovely young woman.

And now, I have several friends who are mothers of children who have died in the past two or three years. We are all working on patience and courage. Not because we want to, but because we have no choice.

And I play this one very frequently for myself, and send it to my friends.


Saturday, December 11, 2010

Advent 3.1 - Desert in Bloom


"The wilderness and the dry land shall be glad, the desert shall rejoice and blossom; like the crocus it shall blossom abundantly, and rejoice with joy and singing."

Isaiah 35:1

I'm not sure I can even count how many people I know who have lost loved ones in the past week. I am working on this myself, and I've had 25 months to get used to Christmas without. Thinking of all those families and remembering the first one, I recall only relentless, unadulterated anguish.

A couple of months ago, I made an eight-day silent retreat. Late on the last night, my director for that week showed me a passage that he has marked in his own Bible with the words "Gutsy faith" and said they were for me, too. I've written the same words in the margin next to the passage in mine. You can look it up. Habakkuk 3:17-19.





Sharon Maia Wilson Painting Here


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Advent 2.7 - Let in Your Child Tonight

I think this might be the best set of Advent meditations I've found this year, thanks to A Concord Pastor. First, commentary by Drew Christiansen, S.J:



And second, the poem itself is on the Concord Pastor site linked above.

For those of us struggling through Advent, challenged at every turn by the juxtaposition of our own sorrow against the light we try to await in hope, this is a tremendous poem for the transition from Week 2 to Week 3.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Advent 2.6 - The Road Beckons

I'm going to visit family for a couple of days, so I'm posting ahead.

Here are two wonderful meditations ~ words and visual ~ from Jan Richardson.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Advent 2.4 - Unease

This is another repeat from six years ago. Who knows? Maybe it will speak to you. As for me, I see stark changes. We no longer go to Chicago for Thanksgiving. We no longer host elaborate Christmas dinners. Today, instead, I made an announcement at church about our "Blue Christmas" service scheduled for December 20, an announcement in which I tried, in the couple of minutes I had, to balance the personal and the universal. And after the service a young man made his way to me, introduced himself and his family, and told me about two immediate family deaths from suicide in his youth.

The part about the low always being lifted high? Let us hope, and let us pray.

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In those days John the Baptist appeared in the wilderness of Judea, proclaiming, "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven has come near." This is the one of whom the prophet Isaiah spoke when he said, "The voice of one crying out in the wilderness: 'Prepare the way of the Lord, make his paths straight.'"
Now John wore clothing of camel's hair with a leather belt around his waist, and his food was locusts and wild honey. Then the people of Jerusalem and all Judea were going out to him, and all the region along the Jordan, and they were baptized by him in the river Jordan, confessing their sins.
But when he saw many Pharisees and Sadducees coming for baptism, he said to them, "You brood of vipers! Who warned you to flee from the wrath to come? Bear fruit worthy of repentance. Do not presume to say to yourselves, 'We have Abraham as our ancestor'; for I tell you, God is able from these stones to raise up children to Abraham. Even now the ax is lying at the root of the trees; every tree therefore that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. "I baptize you with water for repentance, but one who is more powerful than I is coming after me; I am not worthy to carry his sandals. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. His winnowing fork is in his hand, and he will clear his threshing floor and will gather his wheat into the granary; but the chaff he will burn with unquenchable fire."

Matthew 3:1-12



There is no way to get around it; this material always sounds a jarring note prior to the Advent we like to experience, the one where we sing carols and anticipate angels and shepherds and wise men from afar. Sheep and cattle and camels, too -- no scowling tigers or lunging bears. We like to limit our Advent discord to family squabbles over fake versus real, pine versus spruce, steady versus twinkling. No vipers and burning chaff for us, thank you very much.

But there it is, right at the beginning of the Gospel, and what are we supposed to do with it?
I always wondered about John the Baptist. I mean, he sounds quite ill. Who would listen to a man wandering around in animal clothing, crunchy locusts and honey dripping from his hands as he shouted his unique mixture of invective and ecstatic proclamation?

Years ago, I used to work downtown, and a large lady with a tamborine made frequent lunchtime sojourns up and down the block in front of a major department store, shouting the good news of salvation to all the passers-by, who studiously looked the other way. A gentleman in a suit often roamed the same block, preaching fire and brimstone at the top of his lungs. One day he walked right up to me, pointed his finger in my face, and intoned in a deep bass voice worthy of James Earl Jones, "God sees all of your secret sins!"

That was not good news to me.

I spent this past Thanksgiving week-end in Chicago with my family, and we went to see the Christmas displays at Marshall Field's. Sure enough, the Chicago version of John the Baptist inhabited the corner in front of one of the Snow White display windows. This one was a young man, earnestly insisting into a bullhorn that the oblivious shoppers needed to hear the words of the Gospel and ensure their salvation. Most of the crowd, of course, ignored him or, if forced by the crowd in his direction, turned politely away.

John is extreme, for sure, and his harsh words interject, at minimum, a sense of unease into our holiday festivities. But Christmas is an uneasy holiday. There is such a gaping disconnect between the meaning of Christmas and the endless round of shopping, decorating and partying that we try not to notice it. But there is John, to remind us.

I'm not, by nature, much of a shopper, so I think it's wise for me to refrain from criticizing people who are. I can think of few less appealing ways of spending my Thanksgiving holiday week-end than racing through stores. But we did have fun inspecting the elaborate Marshall Field's window displays and checking out the giant tree inside. In years past, we've taken kids to see Santa, attended Nutcracker and Christmas Carol productions , and made a family tradition of one big night of downtown shopping. We host a huge dinner on Christmas Day, and a couple of years we've taken elaborate trips. We could by no means be mistaken for clones of John the Baptist.

But that unease is always there. Christmas, after all, is really about Easter. And before Easter comes the ministry of Jesus, with its passionate focus on the poor and distressed. And after Easter comes Pentecost, the baptism with the Holy Spirit and fire of which John speaks, which we are supposed to use to bring Christ into the world. There's just nothing in there about maxing out credit cards to buy stacks of plastic kitchens and toy weapons.

One of my favorite Christmas songs, which I've heard only at the church I now attend, is entitled "And Every Stone Shall Cry." You can read the lyrics and listen to a portion of it here. Its haunting melody reminds us that

Yet He shall be forsaken
And yielded up to die
The sky shall groan and darken
And every stone shall cry

but also that

But now as at the
low is lifted high
The stars will bend their voices
And every stone shall cry*

That song, I think, reflects on what we are meant to hear in the story of John the Baptist each Advent. The outrage is there, of course -- outrage over a world which persists in focusing on the glitz and the tensions of holiday preparation rather than the incarnate presence of God, and which finds expression in a concluding prediction of angry judgment. But so is the disappointment, at our sad inability to recognize that, in the economy of the Bible, the low is always lifted high.

Advent 2.3 - Hope and Music



"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

Romans 15:13

On a dark (in more ways than one) winter day, I received a card from a friend. He had placed one word on the card. I suppose he thought that with my vast knowledge of Hebrew I would get it immediately, but I had to ask for help.

I put the card on the door to the room where I stayed a few nights a week at seminary. At that time, hope was not in my vocabulary in either language. But it was in my friend's, and it must have been in others', for I stayed put.

There are times when we need others to do the hoping for us. If you are reading this, then I am hoping for you. My own capacity for hope is erratic, but perhaps we all fill in the gaps for one another. If your gap is huge, that's ok. There are people who know that, and it seems that the Holy Spirit works through them to lift that heavy word up for you.